Bored and Blogging

 Over a year has passed since I wrote a blog post here and after all this time I thought I was finally done with it, but today I've felt restless and bored, yeah I could have tidied out a random cupboard or baked a cake but I chose to do a bit of work admin followed by an unhealthy amount of time randomly scrolling through Instagram. 

I finally got bored of that too and I even did all the ironing and put all the washing away.  I've been used to running at a hundred miles an hour all summer and now I've ground to a sudden halt and I'm not quite sure what to do. 

I definitely wasn't planning on blogging, I absolutely loved this blog for so many years, and it got me to where I am today but I used to write freely without thought of who was reading and what they might think.  I'd merrily sit on the balcony with a vodka or three and type whatever came into my head.  

I didn't know too many people here in Cyprus and while at first I felt like an anonymous blogger, it gradually started to feel like a different place online.   

I started to second guess what I was going to write and think of how people might react or what they might think, I realised what ever I wrote was akin to walking into the local pub and just shouting it out loud.  Over the years I'd met many people here and friended them on facebook where I shared all my posts, and they weren't all necessarily actual friends. 

So along with other reasons (working, older kids, etc)  I stopped blogging.  Everything I wrote I imagined different people reading and I wondered what they would think about it,  which is strange as who am I to presume that people are even reading this crap anyway!      Apart from my Mum of course - I know she always read it (and to make matters worse, printed them all out into a folder, and therefore I shouldn't swear, which makes things tricky as I love to swear! )

I realise that even if I did walk into the local pub and started telling everyone random crap, there would be varied reactions, at least online you don't have to read it if you don't want to - just get back to scrolling mindlessly somewhere else! 

My boys are 13 and 10 and while they have never shown any interest in reading my blogs particularly, Leo has probably forgotten that I did it, and Louka probably has no idea or if he does I'm sure he doesn't really care.   Blogs aren't cool, but parents aren't supposed to be cool anyway.  They are very impressed that I've got a YouTube channel though (and randomly an old post recently got 142k views recently for some unknown reason!) 

I could never be a controversial blogger, I like my place here on the fence way too much for that, so why should I give a shit about what I'm writing about,  especially when it's such random ramblings!  

I never used to reread a post before I hit publish, if I had I'd have probably published a lot less.  I've skimmed over this again but mainly as I've had a drink and no dinner yet! 

So, absolutely no point to this post,  although I'm suddenly all up for blogging I realise its a bad idea to promise tons of new posts and interesting content, (although the blogger in me has awakened and has at least 3 post ideas jumping about in my head)

I'm off to write at least one more to be scheduled anyway so it's a start!

A random photo I took earlier this year, for a post with no real point