This week's Gallery theme is Black and White - not a duplication as Tara puts it of last years Black and white prompt, "more of an extension of a great theme."
I love black and white photos but rarely take them, I'm actually using photos taken at the same time as the some of the ones I used last time. I'm being a bit brave (especially as many people I know read my blog) as I hadn't even put this photo on facebook. It was taken when Leo was about 8 weeks old at feeding time.
When Leo was tiny, I was asked more than once "Are you feeding him" now me being me chose to ignore what I 'knew' they meant (as in are you breastfeeding him) and generally replied in a jokey way, no I thought I'd let him starve.
It was not a lot of debate, in fact the main reason against bottles was the fact that I 'should' breastfeed, and I felt that I wasn't giving it a good enough go before giving up. In fact I don't think he ever latched on at all so the poor little man never had a drop.
Midwives came and went over the first week and tried to help but I just didn't feel like it was a battle that I wanted to fight. They were fine and did not make me feel bad at all, a fact I am very grateful for - they would have been shown the door I think if they had done.
I'm sure some will think I was selfish but the decision suited us very well, and enabled me to feel like 'me' again within just a couple of weeks. It meant I could go out (Tesco's, not clubbing!) without worrying how long I would be and if he'd need a feed, and importantly made Aaron and I both equally able to look after him.
I'm sure he will suffer no damage from our choice, and if I had another although I would give breast feeding a go, I'm fairly sure I'd move over to bottles again and I wouldn't beat myself up about it.
I don't doubt that 'breast is best' after all it's perfectly designed for the job, but I still fed him myself (most of the time anyway!) and don't regret it.
|Happy, healthy little man!|
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